The prediction machine our brain is [like one of my dear angelitas puts it]... the prediction mentality is crucial when having any intention to resolve problems like conversations that shouldn't be happening, most importantly it becomes vital to focus those capacities of prediction in foretelling how our loved ones could be hurt if we say things like this or like that, instead of predicting if saying this or that will grant me the victory of an argument. There's never winners in wars, despite the possibility of a victory; wars can only throw losses. And then the aftermath of destruction demands for heavy work of reconstruction. How many relationships are lost because people are lazy for rebuilding and irresponsible thinking relationships are about competition? Most people only know how to destroy others, figuring out the other person, tearing their mind apart just the same as their clothes, but never take any effort to rebuild. Superior relationships require superior efforts to build something sacred.
Superior effort doesn't mean 'more difficult', superior means superior.
Understanding how to treat something sacred from outside is step number one to develop the capacity of building something sacred from the inside. How to infuse the values into the parts that make the entire whole, and communicate those values for the ones who have permission to touch this precious thing that nobody else has permission to touch. What is precious for you and me, others might not value in the same way because it's beyond their limits, so they must only be tolerated to contemplate, never touch. Preferably not even contemplate, it's none of their business but if they learn something good or find inspiration to do something good then life will grant them absolution.
Reality is the same exact thing for everyone, we simply discover it by different paths. However, as rock solid as reality might seem when we take perspectives of popular easy concepts of natural science... not even solid evidence with all of its atoms is as stable as you think, so whenever you think you have solid facts and undeniable evidence or the other way around, reality can still flip the around way a la other. In other words, God can change reality at any time and not when other people tell me to do but whenever the diddly-daddly i want, so don't waste your time on fights when relationship of eternal love mandates to have peace and sex eternally.
Pointy tip of knife
always points outside
far from family, remember?
If you feel like fighting,
fight others but never
loves of your life.
The world of relationships goes astray when you deprived them from peace.
I'm looking forward to a society where the spirit of gender competition ceases to exist which is impossible so what we need to do is put it in its place and keep it on check until that spirit is educated to communicate differently. All those gendered discussions and most often monologues are based on plain prejudice as opposed to empirical observation of both sides of the parties who are being examined, much less did the rants ever took scientific methods to arrive at such rants.
If anyone ever wants to challenge me on such topics i will avoid you and dismiss you because being happy is always better than argumentative fights full of prejudice and rhetorical traps and life is so precious that i have zero interest in proving to anyone how very awesome and scary i am at winning arguments and even ambushing you to prove me right and i have to warn you... i grew up in a feminist family and a macho family at the same time, i can win any fight and have zero interest in fighting because competition in a relationship is all about unhappiness, both sides of the story are wrong, it doesn't matter how correct you get, putting women vs men in fights is always a failure endeavor; fractured from the start.
I have to write about this topic because i can see many of my angelitas stuck in these quicksands thinking that they are swimming to arrive somewhere, but this type of mentality won't get you to a happy place. There's nothing wrong but instead many things right with being a feminist, what is not recommendable is to make your entire life about the feminine struggle. Holding feminist values and exercising them will help you find sorority, throwing threads and weaving your own social fabric is what we all need to have social fluidity which has the potential to translate into many outputs like political power or just better job opportunities or more meaningful friendships. But if you chose to push all your interactions with men across a feminist filter or lens, you are risking to become a misandrist. We all need to remind ourselves that before being men or women, we are human. Be a humanist before a feminist or a varonist. Absolute equality is impossible and nonsense, equality can only be enforced by the law in civil matters or anything regarding citizen equality, which also touches judicial law, etcetera. But nature made us different for good reasons and we must protect each other's sacredness.
The world is being deprived of better conversations while you have your fights of genders, using gendered arguments only exhibits the incapacity to tell someone to their face what they did wrong, or at least what you think they did wrong, what you judge, and yes that's what is all about, it's about judging. Which is not something wrong to do, everyone judges, it's as natural as breathing, and whenever you see someone make a frown when you reveal out loud how judging is as natural as blinking, your duty is to conjugate the verb in all of its forms. Then remind the spirit on the table that judging is not the same as condemning, not even the same as disagreeing, not even the same as frowning upon; judging is the start of an entire process of reason, so always keep in mind that you have real tangible evidence for the subject you are judging because otherwise you will always be both wrong and incorrect as well.
The rule is: no facts? no open mouthsy. Unless you don't speak with entitlement but humbly instead, humble enough to recognize you have an ignorant opinion at best and you let everyone know that you are spitting your opinion only because you want to challenge what you know in case there's someone around who can educate you with facts in the best case, but in the least of cases you will set the mood of the room for an awesome conversation exploring everyone's ignorant opinions... searching for fresh illumination... ah... now... that's a whole different type of wonderful.
Stubborn attitude can arise but you must beware when your competitive mind tries to seduce you to the stipid side of irrational arguments that did not respect the rule of facts, the rule of facts is sacred, only Papi God can alter reality, but that's beyond topic so let us put that aside, this paragraph is about keeping your own mind in check because people are not stupid and we don't fool anyone when we say things like: "i know this for a fact". You don't have permission to pull the word fact from your sleeve like a fake ace when playing cards because we will call you a jocker. Only the people who have the habit of pursuing facts might have done my same observation: the more you seek facts as a serious activity, the less triggerhappy you are at saying something is a fact.
Once you have decided to leave gendered arguments and ignorant generalizations outside of your verbal repertoire, you might be thinking: what now? what do i replace it with? Understandably, we cannot wait to talk until we have facts, otherwise we would be forever mute and with no available methods to clear the air or clean the waters where we breath and swim. Relationships need discussions, but you must learn to use a different language that is not based on gendered competitions, it is based on higher abstractions of the values and attitudes that make humans capable of coexisting, living with each other has a language with words such as "individual" and "agency" and don't be afraid of using not so popular words like "co-dependance" and of course Papi will allow "clingy" to be in your vocabulary. My angelitas can talk however the fuck they want as long as they are learning from Papi, i will correct you whenever you need to be corrected, tenderly, i can do it right there on the spot if i think you can take it, or i might approach you after you are feeling better. You must always keep in mind i am not competing with you, i am in your team, our team.
One phenomenon that commonly marks all families with a before and after is adolescence, when teens realize their parents don't have all the answers, they become suspicious of their parents capacities and in a strange way they decide it's time to take a perspective of competition rather than working as a team. The measure in which this phenomenon happens in your family more drastically strong vs mild, depends on whether your parents are honest and respectful with the members of the family, honest to accept they have limitations, and respectful of the intelligence of other family members. The most effective way to keep your family working as a team is to have a wise attitude and remind them we are all in this together and if i give you this or that instruction is because: any number of reasons; perhaps it works for me, perhaps i have no experience but i learned watching others. Being honest you will find your own corners of ignorance and prejudice. Don't underestimate your own capacity to keep learning and growing, including learning from your kids. Just be honest and keep a peaceful environment.
Being honest doesn't mean to strip yourself naked and give away all your secrets. Honesty is to be exercised within the context of any given situation you need to tackle or you want to help your kids tackle. Recognize the meta-values of the topic you are touching and share your thoughts with your loved ones, the thoughts about how you came up with such values, how your judgement about any topic or person was formed. All human judgements have some degree of prejudice and some degree of evidence, humans cannot know everything together at the same time, that's why the mechanism of prejudice is also necessary for cognitive economical reasons. And your kid might not have enough attention span to listen to you telling them all the fine irrelevant details of what you did on the day that you arrived to this or that conclusion or judgement, so i pretty much recommend you start getting the habit of writing your thoughts for you to develop the skill of being as brief as possible because you can go lengthy on a blog but not so much in a conversation. What your kid needs is compact pieces of wisdom they can unpack and utilize whenever they need to carry themselves successfully in whatever situation unfolding in their lives.
The prediction machine that our brain is... perhaps not everyone is using it on that capacity. Our lives are pretty much determined by our mentality and it's always useful to put yourself in other people's mentality, not only to understand them but you might also develop a new skill you can wear when is useful but put aside when is not. Some people live with a mentality of reaction, exercising prediction very little, or sometimes we exercise prediction in the street, but not in conversations, or we exercise reaction on the production line but not on the street.
Peoples jobs have a heavy role on how their brain is primed, there's inertia. So one of the things i always recommend for life is developing agility of spirit, nimbleness. It's there in one of the first chapters i wrote after i came back and went around searching for answers, searching for Goddess again, when i expanded this blog from occasional cryptic poetry into now hearty testament. Nimbleness of spirit, agility to sprint and change directions according to the needs of the situation and place: that's what it means, one of the meanings at least, the translations are multiple and can't be described with few words; it is about reorganizing actions, reconstructing the words you use, switching and shifting lenses of perspective, like superman, or supergirl or wonderwoman.
Put on those glasses... they change everything. So you put on your glasses of production line worker during morning but when they need your input at management you have the capacity to put other glasses on, and they will see you have management skills, then you go home and you put entirely different glasses to make sure your work doesn't make noise in the happiness of your family, your job only brings all the physical stuff that supports your family's life, things can be going superbad at work but in home you must put your superdad or supermom glasses. Get a new job before is too late but even if it became too late for your job, it must never be too early or too late to keep your senses and protect your family's happiness.
I already knew these things and conducted myself accordingly, by not imposing my easy judgements on my women, or anybody at all. Liberating others liberated me, yes. But i was also not making many tight relationships because i was striving forward in my mission as i previously understood it, sometimes i call it the stupidhero mission, other times i call it the ninja, and i laugh remembering how i told Marisol i was going to ninja-disappear among the many things and angelic hints i told her trying to confess i am who i am and confessing my love while simultaneously was trying to see everything that she is.
After coming back from death, after coming back from seeing hell and heaven and limbo and all many dimensions... knowing those things was the same, the knowing was the same, the doing had to change.
All my life i knew happiness runs out through our fingers when we allow others to enforce on us their stiff expectations of what we should do or not do, say or not say, think or not think. So i had a happy life during my time thinking i was a mortal, not taking shit from anyone, not allowing anyone to derail me with their expectations. Destroying anyone who insisted to bring arguments up to fighting levels was always for me easy as pecan pie. Eating pecan pie of course, because baking is a whole other ordeal.
During my "merry mortal life" i already had accumulated evidence of my divinity but even then i didn't want to tell people, this is sacred and since my faith is Goddess and my religion is Queens... i only ever allowed glimpses for the women i desired or captivated me with their own desire... because Angelitas are my church. So revealing who i am has only ever been for my women. All the rest of people get only mystery without pretenses of mystery, including women i don't want or don't want me. Meaning, all the rest of people get to meet the nice mortal fellow, the guy who loves having a chill time or being super productive workaholic and avoids pushing people and conversations to tight corners because i am a beast in the boxing ring. I enjoyed playing the atheist to destroy atheists in their own ground, i also enjoyed dismantling overly-religious people who pretend to know more than God. While never telling people who i am. Mystery with clear glimpses of mystery? Only for the women i drool for.
The doing had to change but the same spirit remains.
Hiding who i am gave me a feeling of exhilaration that i miss, but i don't miss it as much as i miss the loves of my life. That feeling of exhilaration came from the contrasts of the life i was pushing forward and the nature of my existence defying a prophesy that was whispered to my by angels at the temple's garden saying i was going to die at the same age than Jesus because i was the very same reincarnated and according to them it was bound to happen again, which also contrasted with the lively words of a living angelita who told me i was going to live forever after certain events.
The foundations for that feeling of exhilaration acquired different values after everything that unfolded and now those foundations are still there but for other purposes since i changed the purposes of my life.
Learning from past and present experience i know how to protect my angelitas' happiness and my own. Dismissing the ghosts of our expectations is crucial, we will never be able to destroy those ghosts, but they must always be inferior in our priorities, always giving preference to the reality of you, the real person that breaths and speaks louder than any ghost. We must never give a louder voice to the phantom of the person we think our lover should be according to our expectations. Otherwise, this is where all relationships start to become a cursed ship floating astray with no real crew and no real captain, only remnants of a battle that killed all the people on board. An empty boat full of phantoms and desolation.
So thank you for reading, my sweet darling, this chapter was my long way of saying: i am who i am and i don't look like anyone else, the fields surround me and the whistling of its airs, my companions are my good old animals. Goats and mules, and one or two oxes... just kidding, but certainly not joking... cool mexicans know this is a song made popular by Pedro Infante in a movie that touches this sensitive topic.
Happiness is a sacred thing.
A sacred thing most people
can't understand because
it's not for understanding.
Some people even blaspheme to say
happiness is not even a thing, it seems.
But your spouse Papi God knows best
and he can teach you to see them seams.
Never in my life did i reconfigure my fundamental self to fit the expectations of others, not even for the women i wanted. Adjusted habits? Yes, slightly. Learned new skills for my women? For sure. Adjusted my behavior? Certainly. What i'm saying is, when we know who we are fundamentally, everything else is a playground and we can adapt to any situation for those who we love. And we can also defend, protect and cherish: our individual spirits that live inseparable from our soul. No need to fight, just smile and stand our ground. I was happy without anyone and i will only accept real angelitas around my orbits. And i can expect and suggest you do the same, so dismiss me if i am not the one you want.
Knowing our fundamental self, the immutable bits that nobody can change, allows for such daring adventures or actions that others would consider unthinkable. Irrational bravery comes from faith, but rational bravery comes from knowing what is immortal within ourselves. Rational bravery can be just as astonishing for others as the irrational type is, because we are the only ones who know which one is which.
Irrational bravery drives me when faith needs to be calling the shots in situations when reason is failing to fulfill Goddess' mission. That is my nature, i allow or even force faith to take over and possess me whenever is commanded by the heavens. That is what took me to cross oceans when my wives needed medicine in the time when Fanning sisters plus you and i were vikings, and that is what took me to jump into space using nothing more than a wingsuit when my sister wife was endangered by Jupiter's gravity force in a time when Kristen and most of us dominated the solar system.
Rational and irrational bravery enable us to take actions that others consider unfathomable. Including something as silly as listening or even singing songs supposedly made for girls. Why? Because we know what fundamental bits of ourselves are immortal. Hihihi. I can't be gay even if i tried, get over it. Whenever you see me throwing "angelic dance moves", you must reconsider i grew up watching men fighting with dance moves and magic; sending punches towards the ether or arrows towards some constellation, emulating zodiac warriors, but with real repercussions since i am God of Gods. Life pushed me to militarize all my movements, so i found a way to make it fun. Even if you saw me spinning like a balerino, which is not my style but even if i did it, i would still be casting spells of destruction for our enemies... or you know, just doing it for fun to know how it feels to spin like that. Yet always thinking about my holy angelitas, thinking of my Goddess, above everything else. Women.
Perhaps my dear angelitas already noticed i no longer finish prayers saying amen in this blog, only kept doing it in public prayers, because now it has bossy meaning: imperative form of the verb in plural 2nd person, God commanding al the people to love: amen. Remember how i said you are my religion and this church can only have one man? Well, since this is our private poetry, now i've been finishing our prayers saying either: Women or Aman; many women as commanded by Goddess, and only one man.
Whether it's ethereal fights dancing with fateful forces in the privacy of my room or riskier dance moves preparing myself for an imminent fight with a marine or the cholos or all those people who were thrown at me or those who jumped by themselves, Goddess never failed to bless me with her protection; may that be in the form of fine tunned senses to keep my fighting moves superior and my body untouchable, or in the form of amazing lucky chances manifesting as what i call the Cerberus mechanism that makes the earth swallow our enemies with funny accidents, or in the form of supernatural telekinesis that i call The Treasure of the Heavens making enemies drop their weapons and lose their 5 senses or more if they deserve worse, or in the form of illuminating other people to become friends.
Being happy by ourselves is a superb thing to enjoy, for anyone who has learned to love themselves is something that we wouldn't put in jeopardy. Which also means that because of that, being happy by ourselves is one thing that has the potential of opposing friction when we aspire to be happy in company of one other person, or soupamany other angelitas a la many more, like is our case. Delaying our union shouldn't be our case. Opposing friction is for those who think from the wrong angles. For those who didn't make happiness a sacred thing to protect, for their lovers.
How do we protect happiness beyond nice words then? Just remember the order of things:
Tolerance is the bare minimum everyone gets, and your lovers are much more than everyone else.
Respect is a healthy measure of public society, and your lovers are much more than society a la public.
Appreciation is the insight of hearty minds and smart hearts, then it's always wise to let your lovers be.
Love is whatever we want it to be for us.
The branches of opportunity emerge quite different when you take each one of those platforms, if you start from tolerance there will be certain limited chances, if you start from respect the branches have more sunlight, if you start from appreciation you will find flowers and fruits that contain the seed of specific types of life to make an entire forest. From appreciation life branches into many paths, and one of those paths is real love. Take the correct path for whatever purpose or mission you have, but never miss from sight the vision of those dimensions; tolerance, respect, appreciation, and more.
Having spouses who feel more than appreciation for us, but actual love for who we are and how we are, is one of many things happiness is made of when love was already granted and guaranteed by destiny. Which from certain angle means that the rule of love at first sight gets redemption because while some people call it superficial... enlightened people will see how conditioning our love to deeper observations of the other person's character turn love into a flimsy and even fragile disposable thing. We keep people at a distance and demand life for deeper observations when we distrust what was given to us already by fate until we feel safe to call it destiny; and that's reasonable of course... when you haven't put on your sweatercito of insanity. I invite you quite dearly to put Papi's sweatercito on, you will never want to take it off. The world out there is freezing cold, Papi God love for you is eternally warm.
Each angelita will have different "reasons" to love me or different ways to describe how their love for me took form. And likewise, i have different visions or opinions that i still don't understand myself for loving you. I don't need to understand, i need to love you. Perhaps one angelita will say it was because i made her laugh, another because she admires something i did, another because all the things that Papi endured during missions, another because we like the same things, another will claim that i used my pawas to hypnotize her. All reasons and unreasons always valid to love someone who corresponds to your love. And when love is unrequited just the same because it's also valid to have any reason or unreason to reject anyone. Love is not a logical construct entirely, certainly cannot be forced by human efforts. Love is metaphysical, it can be as easy as a choice, a decision; when someone is driven by control. Or it can be called destiny or surrendering to fate; when someone is driven by flow. It can be called serendipity, when someone is driven by a sensitive mind that pays attention to ethereal forces.
Liking the same things, in my opinion, is one of the worst reasons, one of the worst ideas to find love is to go searching for ourselves in others, scanning for the same taste or hints like targets to hit. Liking the same things can only give you clues on how to connect with a person you want to love. The important thing is the connection and most importantly the wanting. Those are the important things for the sparks.
The important thing for the endurance of a long relationship is to throw stiff expectations to the trash, and appreciate everything that comes from the people you love, you might or might not like it but you must appreciate from whatever angle you can appreciate and move on. And finally the most important thing for this endurance to be eternal, is to understand who makes the rules in the relationship, who is the leader in what places and circumstances and who is the top leader because when a situation goes to a tight corner this person's verdict is unquestionable. In our family, that one is of course Papi God yours truly. But that doesn't mean i remove your agency, i give all angelitas space and power in their domains.
I follow your leadership when we are navigating your domains. But if for whatever reason Papi God Jorge says something must be done, you must obey without arguments. Doing comes first when Father God gives orders, understanding why you had to do something comes later. It's quite similar for me when i am navigating a situation like meeting your family and you give me some specific direction on how to approach your mom or dad or any other relative. First is doing, later will come explanations.
Why? because you can't prepare me for everything in advance, life can bring surprises and it will, like a surprise visitor or anything you didn't remember about your dad until he was there in front of us, there's no time for explanations, just do whatever the fuck Goddess said because she's the one who gives me my healthy doses of fucky.
All of these paragraphs is the long but much needed wise explanation for that popular idea that more people should be pushing being outspoken because the world needs to hear it many more times until everyone understands it deep down to their core and upwards to their daily actions:
Don't try to change your husband or wife. Instead of being apprehensive for the expectations you have for your spouses, instead of the ghosts or phantoms of what you wanted them to be... be grateful for the person who your spouses are, it's the only person you will enjoy, the real one, the one that is alive, breathing and babbling, so make sure to enjoy plenty.
We all change, we all can change, we have the capacity and we do it all the time. But we don't enjoy being forced to change and when we are forced is quite rare that the new behavior will stick unless we have a super great understanding of why we need to do this now in the way we are being told to do it.
A happy relationship must have a great deal of space to be yourself and only few things to adjust.
Example? I will command you to stop smoking if you want me to impregnate you with my holy seed, and you will still be obligated to not smoke when you are breastfeeding. But that doesn't mean i will forbid smoking for all eternity. Other angelitas might frown upon all smokers but instead of prohibition we must find ways to make our differences meet in peace. For example, you wouldn't kiss one angelita who has made clear she doesn't like it when your mouth tastes like cigarette, but if she's the one who jumped at your lips she must be prepared for any surprise.
Imagine that for more than a second. All many types of surprises will happen in all eternity. Perhaps she was having chocolate, great surprise if you love chocolate, or perhaps her mouth tasted as Papi God's "maple syrup" because she was sucking my cock just few seconds ago before you jumped to kiss her. You better fucking be delighted by yummy surprises coming from our angelitas' mouths. A person who gets easily disgusted might not be a good fit for our whimsy family, just the same as a person who is trigger-happy to get upset by her triggers, we would better have to call that by a different name like, trigger-misery. You must trust and embrace our angelitas if you intend to be ours, you must trust and embrace anything that you might find in their mouths by surprise, since they are our sacred lovers everything that comes from them is holy.
And that is one obvious way of why it is important to only accept people who are compatible into any given bed arrangement. For example, Papi God would never ever be okay with one angelita mouth touching any other man. But other families might have different rules, it's not my style to condemn other ways of finding happiness, i judge and appreciate, remember judging is not disapproval. Television didn't give you the right concept of judging others. So my judicial verdict is have fun in whatever type of bed arrangement you chose or chose you, it's none of my business to fixate on how others make sex. But in Father God's bed arrangement, in apollonian polyfidelity, the man who is the center of solar system can joke saying: "i'm all apologies". Our Holy Paradise Ellysium is apollonian, and other people might copy the same design if it fits them. While others might copy this design but reverse the genders and that's okay, i already talked about that topic. I made polymatina too, she's quite angelical even if not one angelita for my bed. Being the center of bed arrangement doesn't make you into God. Only Papi God Jorge is God. *Shruggs*. But polymatina has my permission to be praised by the many men she will have. Or like civil law will put it: she has every right.
Papi God has standards of course and thinking of all the many situations that might arise during eternity is exactly the reason why i have total certainty angelitas must understand obedience because i will have to re-educate you on some angles for you to be able to be happy and make angelitas happy in our sweet Paradise Ellysium. Your parents did whatever they could with their capacity and with any level of effort and interest they managed to offer. I don't expect you to be perfect, the only black and white rule is be obedient of all my black and white rules, which means one black and white ink is used for more than only one rule but it's all for the same purpose: protecting the sanctity of our eternal Paradise Ellysium.
We also know that life won't change in an instant from being stiffy-boring for a snap of fingers to turn everything suddenly into your dreamy soupahentai life that you want. I can read angelitas' minds and her desires are phenomenal delicious glory and i will make all your girly girl dreams come true while at the same time you need to be prepared for a period of transition from boring society taking most of your time until we are finally living as we want to. And for all the steps needed you must exercise obedience.
One of the most important but definitely not the only important reason for such obedience is that Papi God will make you eat certain things to make you healthy and there's no space or time for whining. Eating these things in the form and order i tell you is how we fix our health to stay young without invaders in our bodies, it's the same treatment for all humans. The magic of Papi God's hands and cock massaging all your body to make you even hotter and younger as a teen is another story, but how much do you think that body will last if you allow invaders? Be obedient, there's no way around it. I only give magic sexy massages to my obedient women, anyways.
You cannot doubt the pawa of Papi God's lovely magic when your have experienced it yourself, how strange is it that your boobies started to grow slowly and your hips became rounder after Papi Jorge started giving you tele-bangy. Did you go longer hours to the gym or prepared much more intensely for your concerts? Nope. In other occasions you had already made great efforts and only saw the same results as always. Bigger boobies and rounder hips and a whole other slight modifications that never happened before. And you can see the same effect happening in all angelitas who Papi chose.
That's what happens from a long distance,
you can only start to imagine what happens
when we spend time together.
Going insane a la bangy.
For all sempiternal foreverest.
For all angelitas made Goddess.
For all devotion and obedience.
For all yummy surprises elevated.
Aman.
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