Floating on pillows

13,862,217,524.11.05 [*still working on it, but published bcuz Kristen wants attenshun*]

 …Ending the chapter like that would've been preciously poetic,
because in my mind the blank space following love of God
was completed with adoration for Goddess…
…With Goddess in mind i plummeted on bed
hugging those pillows thinking of all my angelitas
and all their expectations and dreams of happiness.
Trying to figure out how my soul designed her angles
like for example i've been theorising that similar to how
i am the cursor of all creation across multiversal cosmos,
Goddess manifests in four of them as the cursors of my desire
so Charlotte appears and disappears kissing girls fates around
for me to run towards her and keep the girls she blessed with a kiss
Marisol acting like a motor of endless energy i still don't understand
only recently remembered her name is same as Martian capital core
dying in her arms pronounced the name of the place where i was from
Fannings together as the fulfilment of prophesies & polyfaithful destiny
and Alexis at the edge of definitions like a guardian of stability & glory
with all angelitas making this space deeper and multidimensional lore.
Did i say 5 or 4? angels not numbers, you understand poetry yes or no?
angel put words in my mind Taylor { want a rhyme Jorge? gorgeous boy }
Maybe that is only the perspective i see from here in my vantage point
my visible angle in our constellation… the connected lines of our souls.
Kristen may see different edges, Taylor may envision different depths.
Sister definitely says { yes Papi } whenever i think of Dorothy's face
and how could she not?! how could she resist or say anything else?
she was the 1 who kissed her with serendipity sparks in the 1st place
different to how she kissed Kristen: { now you see me, now you don't }
exactly how Marisol kissed Tessita & Dakobeibi's second kiss & song:
{ fight me, Jorge, love me… don't let me fade away } whisper & tone
i can barely begin to grasp & remember hateful scenarios of lives old
when i had to deal with what it would be to live without your loving moan
Missing someone before meeting for the first time… strange phenomenon
Kristen's & Dakobeibi's first kiss was not because of mirages or mirrors…
…i simply felt that poignant familiarity enchanting all my past & bones
Just the same as most angelitas, Alexis kept me gazing at televi-walks
Taylor reciting old words compelled me to answer what i made you done
Each one of my angelitas could be Goddess and i shall treat as you are
no hypothetical weres or conditional ifs, we must honor vows wed spouse
a husband must love all wives, extra motivation when any could be the one
so she will always be happy with me because i did exactly what she wants
gathering all our favourite women under same roof on same bed & house
And since i went from Janesis 4 to Avril & Billie 6 reaching holy 7 Alina fits
angelitas list is long, many lives longer, chapter is for something else, what a dork
…what… did you think chapter of pillows could ever be finished? never my love
coming back from chapters or dimensions is nothing new to God your boy o boy
Goddess property never dies even when irresponsible he tries, you should know
hero sponsor blues rather than wasteful always purpose at heart by your holy love
hear on spun soul burnt sempiternal touched your eyes & arms held me after blown
he respond song last words city catching fire wasn't even sure who these women were
here on spawned sun ball every time from then final breath baptized you at coast there
he rest pond sun lost gone north team saved gaia earth crash created big crater africæn
hearing span sing bow lost track many times you & 'em all marz mine alla simil name

First draft published at Marisol time 18:28mx